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When will this end

When will this end When will this phase end? "When you wish to end it" The audience always seems soo wise What do they know What do they know about the pain of loss What do they know about legitimate lethargy ? What do they know of not being accepted What do they know about the energy that is needed to get up with a smile on your face, everyday ? What do they know about the value of success? What do they know of the pain behind perseverance ? What do they know It's easy to witness a play Becoming the character After years of practice To appreciate that Is beauty So, yes, knowing that I know better Than to pose such questions On days where Grief, lethargy, laziness and my uninspired soul Wrap their black wings around me I will Look up And Ask When will this end?
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Day 465

Hello The mornings are difficult, usually I'm settled by the night. Started my day with watching fabulous Yanks Marshall dance his new routine. Gave me a punch of positive energy. I had a feeling that maybe something will happen, maybe I will do something with my life, maybe I don't really need a job. But a nap changed all of that when an army of mosquitoes bit my leg off. But I'm just getting through with the idea that all of these experiences are necessary and important for my journey ahead. Atleast that's what I'm telling myself for now. Haha
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Introduction

Hello ! So I am currently unemployed and this blog is a little public journal to share my everyday learning and frustrations. Okay Bye :)
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Realisation

Hello ! I am unemployed. I had a dream, last night. I was travelling to a new place, a place I had never visited, I was happy, carrying a rucksack, a yoga mat, my potter's wheel and paints. I was looking out the window of the train, it was raining and I had this feeling of being full, feeling complete. I wish I had that dream. Unemployment has different effects on different people, depending what their weakness is, mine is that I think of great plans but I never act on them, I start, but I leave it half way, because I'm lazy. So to me unemployment is this person who is showing me the mirror atleast ten times a day. Self discipline, mind management, time management, enthusiasm, they all visit for a few hours and then they leave. Sad. Very sad. " Oh you have time! You can do anything you want to! You can go out, paint, exercise, join a class." Frustration. "Oh you are soo lucky to not have a job! You can do anything you want! Go out on a vacation, do y...
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